…Seek the Solitude of Self

I LOVE Wednesday.  I am off work, and nobody is home so I am free to be as me as I want to be.  Sometimes that involves gratuitous nudity, sometimes just nachos.  Most Wednesdays involve magic of some sort and a lot of study time, as it is one of the few times I am completely as uninterrupted as I want to allow myself to be, until about 2 PM when boy three gets out of school.

IMG_0552I have been a bit out of sorts for a while, so I took a small road trip.  I needed to go where I could feel grounded, be in solitude but I couldn’t range too far.  I picked a place that I have only been to twice, but is very significant in my mind and in my craft.


Undisclosed beautiful place where i get to practice my acting of seasonal festivals

No doubt some of you recognize where I am at.  That is right, and it has been since November since I have had an opportunity to visit.  I wanted to come at first to just see if there was a lot of snow on the ground, to see how cold it is, etcetera, but I stayed for the calm, the quiet, the ‘vibe’ and of course for the communion and the energy that has been gathered there.

The God and Goddess are in all things, and in all of us and everywhere.  Sometimes though, like the white altar candle we have lit, there are places that are special and set apart.  The energy and the spirit of the place overwhelm the mundane.  The space between I and the God and the Goddess, the ancestors and those that have taught us these ways is thin.  The magic is palatable and it was just what I needed today.

It is true that I have been at other of our Sabbat sites more, but today I feel as strong of a connection as I did back in September with this place and knew that I would feel right and grounded again spending some time here.  I spent time in meditation for a bit, I communed and had discussion about things that needed to be said and questions that needed to be asked with those that were with me in my solitude.

This facial hair is getting out of hand, like Joaquin Phoenix crazy

There are a lot of changes in the air within my Year and a Day and in my mundane life as well and I did not get all of the answers I am seeking right now, but I have direction again and am stronger for it.  I wish I had the words like Susie the Uzi to put into poetry, or Lord Tanys or Lady Atheona’s pipes to oput it in song, but I have words on page letting myself know that for a brief moment in my world all was right and good.

I am excited to visit this special place again soon.

Blessed be.

Defend your Turf, or….

Seven of Staves (Wands)

What a remarkable on the money quick flip reading I got from the Tarot this morning.  The card for the day is the Seven of Staves (Wands).  My own drawing from the card is of a man defending his turf.  The picture clearly shows a young man, of giant proportion, holding a staff (wand) in a very defensive posture as he looms over hills and rivers and precariously also stands on the edge of a cliff, which I almost missed.  There are six other staves being held menacingly by six unknown parties.

I pulled this card reversed and my immediate reaction was that in order to overcome the obstacles I questioned ab out today was to stop being so defensive about those around me.  It is definitely OK to defend you and your own, but maybe my energies are better put to bettering myself than defending myself and spending energies in areas where there is really no conflict (the six staves are being held by unseen parties – maybe they aren’t really attacking?).

I feel very strongly that this card was perfect for the situations I have been facing at work, and really did nail the situation at hand.  Of course, the skeptic in me wondered if my own intuitive subconscious was leaning to my interpretation of the card, so I looked up various sites with correspondences of this card, and I was fairly right on the money.

This card really means to me that I do need to be on my toes, but I am wasting my time fighting things that are not really in the way or not as ‘dangerous’ as they really are.  I am perhaps escalating the situation.

Every day I am a little more amazed by not only my growing intuitive response to my Tarot deck, but the quiet advice I am given.  True, some of the advice is obvious – but we tend to overlook those things staring right at us, and we need to hear.  It is similar to a very funny quip I heard recently, ‘What is blue and smells like red paint?  Blue paint’ I will let you ponder the deep shit that means.

Though I continue to learn and grow the Tarot and will continue to post, I need to move also on to spending more time with my runes.  I am also seriously considering the Ouija, but that is because I am a glutton for weird shit reaching out to me.


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I have a plan.  I have a plan to energize my writing and at the same time, work on my skill at divination and more specifically, the arcane mystery of the TAROT!  (Cue echo…)

For the next little bit a few times each week, I am going to draw a daily card and talk about it from my interpretation, relation, emotion and what I see and feel in the card and I will also give the ‘technical’ meaning according to biddytarot.com; thus begins my tarot journal.

Today’s card was the KING OF SWORDS
Allow me talk about a few items that jump right out at me as I see this card.first, here is a man sitting on a throne on a small rise with a beautiful calm day behind him. His throne has butterflies and I think that may be a cherub (?).  He is in Blueish vestments, with red out cloth and purple cloak or cape.  He is holding a sword in his right hand and the look on his face is not of contemplation but of resolve and confidence.  His foot shows from under the robe.

This is what I see.  This is not Donald Trump; he does not lack confidence or need to bully. People listen because this man has authority, and knows it, and doesn’t need to remind you.  He has confidence and has earned his position through skill, wisdom and resolution.  He sits in judgment from a stance of competence.  This is not someone with something to prove but has already proven it.  The color of the clothes tells me that he is of royalty, magic and belief.  His face is calm, but with his foot forward, he is also ready to act.  I find the butterfly throne intriguing because this is a measure of change which seems to speak from a different angle than my original thought.

I read this card as resolution, confidence, direction and leadership.  Reversed, it could be the lack of direction or self-confidence.  Someone not to be trusted, perhaps?

Reading from biddytarot.com, my initial interpretation does mark on some of Brigit’s thoughts as well.  Feel free to go here to read her take on the King of Swords.

This card speaks to me in relation to the way I have been feeling recently.  I pulled the King of Swords today reversed, so my feeling of it referring to a lack of self-confidence is pretty spot on.  I am working on it, but the past month has been a little rough; both mundane and from the craft standpoint, I have not felt very witchy per se.

But, the lesson from this same card is obvious.  Be ready, do the work and to be witchy, BE WITCHY.  Hold magic in a special place.  Study and be resolute in your study.  Seek mentors, do not wait for them.  Be calm but ready to act.

It’s a great reminder today.

See you soon.